Are We Heathens?

from Media Shower by Dead in Four

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I hate me
Or do I?
Maybe I'm having a rough go of it
Like daylight
Or sunshine
Is there glory outside my dreary head?

My pride is on the table
I'll love myself another day
Feeling like i'm willing and able
but miles from the best of my days

I'm at the brink
then i'm back in my bed
So hard to escape the vicious thoughts in my head
Block them out
Focus on something else
There has to be something worthwhile in me

I'm not that kind to the one I see
In the mirror, heart ache reflecting
Why's it so strange to be all I can be?
But ignore cliches and mediocrity

What do you think?
Do I like being this way?
It's like having
An enemy inside your head every day
Don't want a pill, no
Don't want my head in a maze
Am I already a lost goal?

My pride is on the table
I'll love myself another day
Feeling like i'm willing and able
and inches from the best of my days
My mind is on the table
To prop myself up another way
Years upon years of unstable life, addicted to feeling pain

Keep me up at night and
Don't offer me the way to go
I see, the worst things,
over and over, they cycle through
The rationale is that it
it doesn't matter anymore
I know I, can break free
with the help of my one and only

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from Media Shower, released October 2, 2020

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